Month: July 2021

Bad things happen on holidays

My grandfather died on Valentine’s Day in 2016. (He’d been diagnosed with cancer a year before, so we knew it was coming. But still.)

My uncle died on Easter in 2017. (This changed the entire dynamic of our family, and we have not celebrated a holiday as a family since. Four years later and this still breaks my heart.)

My father’s eyeball almost exploded about a week before Christmas in 2018. (Blood vessels behind his eye fused together, and his eye was getting too much blood at too much pressure, and it probably wouldn’t have really exploded, but when I asked a doctor they refused to say that was an impossible outcome. He’s fine now. But if he would have waited and gone to a hospital on Christmas Eve, he’d be dead. Because at this point I’m convinced that’s how it works.)

And not that my birthday is a holiday (no worries, I know I’m not that special), but my grandma died on my birthday in 2005. (I felt guilty for celebrating my birthday for years. My mom said I was crazy, but that doesn’t change the fact that my birthday is still remembered as “the day grandma died” for that side of the family. I have no hard feelings about it and the guilt is gone, but I still hate celebrating my birthday. It feels weird when anyone–with the exception of like, five people–acknowledges it at all.)

All this to say:

Today, my aunt experienced some complications from a procedure she had ten days ago. These complications included heavy bleeding, and she was pale and shaky and clammy, but she still had a five hour wait in the ER where the nurses were rude and dismissive. She’s actually still there, and part of me is getting more and more nervous.

Because nothing good happens on holidays. EVER.

Edit:

Aunt is going to be okay, but my original statement stands.

The Kinship Quilt Along…

It’s officially day two of this quilt along, though I’ve been working a bit ahead for a few days (like, 28?) to try and get some cutting done. While I don’t mind cutting anymore, it’s not my favorite thing so getting some completed beforehand makes things feel more doable.

I have a few days of blocks completed, in case Life Happens. Otherwise, my goal is going to be seven blocks a week.

I can confidently say after cutting about twenty-five of these blocks. that fussy cutting is definitely not my cup of tea. It’s… okay? I can do it. But It Feels Like A Lot.

Additionally, making a bunch of different blocks for a quilt is probably also not my cup of tea. XD At least maybe not this many in this kind of time frame? Maybe it’s the time of year, and when I sit down to work on this I just keep dreaming of being in my garden–should I haul my stuff outside and cut there?

My background noise for this project is Star Wars. I thought I’d watch just the movies, and after blowing through the original three (IV, V, VI) I decided watching everything, from the very beginning of the story, was probably a more appropriate goal. Thus far, I’ve watched Episode I and Episode II (I hate Anakin), the animated Clone Wars movie (I strongly dislike Anakin), and am now slogging through the Clone Wars series (Still strongly dislike Anakin).  I say slogging because ug. Was it made for kids? I don’t know, and neither does the show. We get lessons on life and friendship, and then someone gets murdered without any follow-up, explanation, or consequences, so. (I’m surprised by how much I also dislike Obi Wan? Because while Anakin is showing signs of being evil, he still gets shit done. Yes, he just stabbed someone, but do you really need to scold him Obi? He just saved your life.)

I’m told season 3 is where it picks up. That’s only 50ish episodes in, which is comparable to the investment required for Gintama, so I’m sticking it out. (Regardless, I’m sticking it out, because I feel like I have to.)