So I made it to block 30 on the Fusion Sampler quilt (though I have about 60 blocks done – I jumped around a bit because of color/lack of space to keep that many fat quarters flat and neat) before some major depression hit and I was unable to do much of anything until about a week ago.
It was the kind of depression that makes everything feel pointless and hopeless. Every single task was next to impossible. My hobbies felt like joyless, thankless work. I think the reason I was able to get out of bed was because of my dog – because how can anyone say no to that little face? Not sure any one thing triggered it. Not sure any one thing is making me feel better at the moment. Just actively trying to reconnect with the things that used to/should make me happy and not stress about things out of my control.
Which was not the Fusion Sampler quilt.
I want to stress that this pattern is magnificent and beautiful and so wonderfully put together. I regret nothing, except the fact that I’m apparently not in the right headspace to be able to do something that intricate. (I’m also currently lacking dedicated sewing space, and setting up a table, gathering my tools, etc. takes up about half of the time I set aside to sew every day, which is a bummer.) Someday I’m going to pick it back up again and finish it.
For now, I’m forcing myself to do simple things. Currently working on a small quilt for Ruby (I’m currently hand-stitching the binding) and the Rail Fence poppy jelly roll quilt I started about a year ago. I got frustrated after only four blocks and sat it aside. I was not experienced enough to know that a) you don trim jelly rolls like that and b) as long as simple blocks like this are the same size, it doesn’t really matter that the size isn’t perfect. (This particular quilt has been pinned, and will be machine quilted over this long weekend over many a strawberry margarita.)
Here’s to getting something done and possibly enjoying it along the way.
